Originally published March 6, 2008.
Open marriages—do they ever work?
After 16 years and one kid, my husband and I are considering an open marriage. Over a year ago, I met another man who I was attracted to and wanted to fuck. I had met men like this throughout our marriage, but never did anything because I was married and respectful of the monogamous relationship we had. I would just bring that "crush" energy home and take it out on my husband. Our sex life has always been okay, nothing mind blowing, but steady.
Well, we hit the inevitable rut that couples sometimes get into and I was bored and frustrated and wanted more than my husband was giving me. I asked, but he just wasn't interested in exploring anything more than the vanilla sex we were already having. I gently tried toys, porn, going out to bars and checking out others for three-ways. He wasn't interested. So I made peace with the fact that I was stuck with a vanilla guy and just focused on the other parts that worked—good partner, good man, steady guy. A little boring, but better than a drama freak.
Then about a year ago, I met someone who turned from a friendship into a strong attraction. Instead of having an affair, I told my husband that I wanted to be able to pursue sex with this person since I wasn't getting what I wanted at home. Husband got pissed and said no way (no surprise), but that if I did do anything, he didn't want to know about it. Don't ask, don't tell. I didn't do anything out of respect for him, but it made me resentful. So I decided to ask for a divorce before entering into an affair, and about five months ago my husband and I separated. I have been seeing the other man during this time and the sex has been amazing—he's doing the things that I begged my husband to do with me. My husband has been miserable without me and has agreed to an open marriage so we can still be together, be a family, and I can be free to have an outside relationship. My husband is also free to have an outside relationship. He now accepts that I've been with another man (whom he has met) and that I am capable of loving him as a husband while having a sexual relationship on the side.
This has been a long letter, I realize, but all I want to know is if this is a recipe for disaster. Am I fooling myself about the reality of opening a marriage up to include outside lovers? Does it only sound good in theory?
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My response after the jump...