I don't know how you do it but you keep finding guys that end up beating the shit out of you. Even though you have to move every couple months to get away from these sicko women beaters, you nevertheless always and inevitably hookup with the same fucking type of guy every time. You file restraining orders and then when you get drunk and horny enough you call these assholes up. I am beginning to think you like getting your ass beat. I see how you find these prone-to-violence-against-women types and push every fuck button they have the whole time you are with them. What's even more fucked up is that you are a professional councilor for abused women!
You need help or you need to admit you actually like this kind of abuse, I hate to say. I no longer feel sorry for you.