Tough to think I'm almost 40 years old. Had one of those deep introspective moments today where it's like wow I'm getting old, kind of a nightmarish feeling. My mind still feels fresh and young, but mature. My body not so fresh and young. Things ache and it's harder, longer to recover. Most guys over 40 experience some type of erectile dysfunction. Is Viagra next?

Everyone around me is like over 50, over 60, some in their 70s and 80s, and that seems normal to me. I even look at them as if they are a lot younger, like my peers and shit. They do always point out and remind me of how old they are by complaining about shit all the time though. In my 20s, I used to think 40 year olds were so old. Even watching some show, when people say they're 40, I looked at them as a mature adult. Of course some of them aren't aging nicely. Then I think, shit I'm the same age, but I don't feel or act like a mature adult. My parents had me when they were 30 and mid twenties. I'm almost 40 and no kids and can't imagine raising children when I'm still one. All my equal aged friends have kids that are growing up. My nieces and nephews are in high school, and in or off to college. When did this happen?

I guess there's only one thing next.