There have been several rants lately about how men do this and that, poor women. It is real simple, find your own enjoyment with out complaining how he treats you. Once you leave him, then and only then will you be your own person. I mean this so seriously, unless you want to live a life of taking care of someone who obviously does not care about you enough, what's is the point? I hope you don't live with him. Take a trip,and see some sights. Whale watching, anything. Get out of your environment, without him.