I've been a reader of the Portland Mercury for a long time. As a 4th generation longshoreman in this town, I've been the proverbial fence-walker aligning myself with a right-oriented blue collar community and embracing a more open-minded and creative friend base. As for Trump, to be honest I hate the guy. I knew he was bad. It's no excuse but my motives were economic. I reflected, "maybe we can ride the storm with this bastard, nothing important to American culture can be sacrificed (boy was I wrong) and maybe our tolerance for his term will be justified by a stronger industrial economy." I was tired of hearing from my friends that the oil patch is running dry of work because of federal regulations. I grew tired of going to the long shore hall and watch guys who've worked the ports in Portland for 30 years get turned away - again - in similar fashion of "On the Waterfront". Reading about American mineral dependency really got me worked up, and when he said he could champion American steel I thought "maybe this is how people can afford to live again." Obviously I was wrong. He's done nothing for the economy and he's only worked to kill the progress great minds have accomplished over decades of fighting. I was recently criticizing a superintendent at a site I go to, and then it dawned on me everything I don't like about him is the traits Trump is showing. As if I were late to common sense it hit me: what the fuck have I done? How could I vote for this guy? I hope you can accept my apology. Every vote counts, and I feel personally responsible in some way for the shit show that is growing out of control right now.