I've supported you because we are friends, but it's time for you to move on from this silly dream of being a "musician." It'd be one thing if you thought of music as a hobby or something to do with friends, but you're too old to be clinging to the dream of "making it." You're not terrible but your not that good either. And you're producer husband isn't gonna be the one to tell you so I will. Good luck with the new town, I hope you find a new passion more worthy of your time.