because in the last 2 months i've moved from a euopean city life with a great job to small town life in my parents basement and a mind-melting world of unemployment. i've been dumped (yes, already!), stood up for 'Repo!' and the beer store ran out of the Abyss! i haven't been to a proper gig in a bijillion years because southern europeans trying to do 'goth' is even more depressing than my little brother flat ironing his hair and a bit like my granny trying to rap chistmas carols. going to see NIN would remind me why all this bs is worth starting over here in portland! also, i look wicked in vinyl pants! ;-P
getting poorer