What the fuck are you rambling on about it the most roundabout and incoherent of ways? You were speeding and not paying attention and would have killed someone if another party hadn't intervened? Is that the gist of it?
Some things actually call for stopping to apologize in person. I think almost killing someone is one of them. Sounds like you hit and ran maybe? Sounds like you're irresponsible AND cowardly perhaps.
seems like a simple enough thing: you fuck up, you almost kill somebody, you admit it, and you learn from it.
but, no -- you're quite the anomaly in not automatically, reflexively placing the blame for your dangerous mistake on someone or something else.
live long and help to spread the religion of physics to all of the lead-footed assholes out there, I,A.
Jesus...