"All of my partners have been abusive or crazy..."

And what is the only constant in all of these dysfunctional relationships?
YOU.

"I've been rotating between three homes with a fuck it all attitude"

Yeah, clearly your exes were the problem. Your new "buddy" should run for his life.

You need to move back to your families' home. Maybe you just got out of prison, and thought you might get sympathy here. You need to get a job, get a vocation and try to remind your self that your over inflated image of yourself is just sad. Very sad.

You sound really crazy. Your lover is called Buddy? I guess I read this whole thing wrong, I do that sometimes.

Possible that this is a man writing about a man.