Maybe if I woke up earlier and did all my homework and way more push ups. If I never started smoking pot. Never watched porn. Never played pokemon. Magic the gathering. Skate Boarding Game 3.
True story. Got tired of hiding the n64 in a cupboard after I was done and traded it for meth. Easier to get away with doing meth than it was to play video games.
I should have done better anyway.
I should have seen through all the shit. Navigated. Negotiated. Zeroed in on a goal. I'm just mad I didn't do any of it right. No excuses. I'm the only thing I can control. It's my fault even if it isn't.
Who cares. Get back in the machine