You definitely need mental health assistance. I hope you seek it and find help. Killing yourself will not solve your problems and it will harm your children in ways from which they will never recover.

https://www.portlandoregon.gov/police/article/530541

You would not be paying government mandated (or wage garnished) child support if your ex had kidnapped your children. If you have your children some of the time, your children have not been kidnapped. Breeding children requires that you take care of your children financially and otherwise. Men in this country like to believe it is not their responsibility and that women are to blame for everything. For the sake of your children, focus on them and their needs and stop focusing on blaming the woman with whom you brought two children into the world.

And just when are the kids old enough to deal with your death? You think that's going to be fun for them at any age? Mission accomplished on the "cry for help" thing - who's going to help your kids when they cry? I just lost my son at just 21 years old - so again I ask you, how old is "old enough" for YOUR children?

@2 No cats. No kids! No men! Happy, happy, HAPPY!!!

christina: cats are wonderful. you really should get one.