You told my coworkers I made you feel like a germ. This breaks my heart. I remember, it was a Monday and we were at the park supervising preschoolers. You approached with your young son and a boom box. Your son was full of energy and joy. You said your son was four and asked how old these kids were, I said “ around your sons age.”
Then came my mistake. I tried to disengage, to focus on the kids I was supervising. I must have walked away while you were trying to speak to me. I thought I was doing my job, prioritizing the kids’ safety. But I know I could have done better. I could have been kind, it would not have taken much time.
When I finally turned from the children I finally saw you talking to and hugging my coworker. I think she was able to give you the validation, respect, and empathy you deserve. What I didn’t make time for.
My coworkers told me my rudeness may have appeared to be racism in your eyes. I am so sorry that you came away from that interaction feel so disrespected. I want you to know that I am going to put extra effort into treating strangers with kindness and respect.
The school I worked at took the issue seriously and let me go because of my behavior that day and for a few other reasons. I am now unemployed but I have a new determination to look more strangers in the eye and smile, to convey in an interaction that they deserve recognition. You taught me this.
You seemed like a brave and strong mother. I wish you the best, and know that your wellbeing is in my thoughts.