I have BPD, and also PTSD. The one trait of BPD that I dont have is that I dont currently self harm and I havent since I was a teenager which was about 15 years ago.
But im just noticing there will never be a time where I will ever even come close to neurological. I try alot, but I can never get there. Im always afraid of being abandoned because I was, literally abandoned as a child. I will always be suspicious of peoples intentions because I have literally experienced so many people that I trusted doing things that harmed me.
So, sometimes I do feel like I'm a wast of air and space because being this messed up in the head has no hope of ever getting to normalcy.
I dont know if it matters, but if you can try to fight against stigmas of personality disordered people, it would help those who are like me.