I desperately need to quit my job.

It's unhealthy for me. It's unhealthy for my family. It's not allowing me to do my best work and be my best self. I don't want to admit it, but it just makes me feel stupid and used. The thing is we are in the middle of a pandemic. A lot of people have and will tell me that I should be thankful to have any sort of income during this time. I'm afraid to ask friends for help because I've met most of them through work stuff and I'm not sure if they would give me real advice. I might be able to take some clients with me, other people have done that in the past, but I'm not confident that would be enough to support us.

I know I'm incredibly lucky to be given so much. I'm scared to find out what it is I can or can't do on my own. I don't know how to whistle.

My boss has made many promises that just weren't delivered.

No one likes their boss, but my coworkers are okay. In fact, with all of us working from home, they are probably the majority of social interactions I get these days. I'm scared to let them down by leaving. I'm scared to ask them their thoughts, because I'm not sure if I can trust them to keep it confidential. I feel like I'm just going through the motions. Like every zoom call is a scripted performance, we were just meet to recite lines with each other but without any meaning.

I know I need to quit my job and create something better.

What would you do in my shoes?