You are not supposed to be punished. You actually have a beautiful mind because you have this wonderful earth as your home. Pain is not and will not be a part of our earth. Do not think your suffering is your fault and yours alone. We have all been bad to one another but we wish for the best. Your pain is not your guilt. You don't deserve anything that has been forced upon you. Please be well my friends, this is a very troubling time for many. You are strong.