the other day i unprivated my instagram account and posted. my friends reposted me who are mutuals with my ex, small world. i am in a 3 year relationship with the girl i am surely going to marry. i really am committed to her too. but sometimes, i have extremely intrusive thoughts. i blushed. i blushed over my ex giving me attention by viewing my story. for those who want to defend me, please don’t. i admit that i generally have high moral ground. i’ve always been repulsed by people who aren’t near perfect, yet here i am. i like getting attention. i am a sick fuck who likes the attention of rando women crushing on me. not necessarily talking to me, just small glances or a “she’s cute” in their head. i like when my exes watch my story. i don’t like them, i just like feeling wanted.