Sometimes I'm just so freaking horny. I've masturbated 3 times in one day, once. I'm not a club hopper or bar goer looking for hookups. I'm not an online dater. Ive never been and I never will. Its just not my thing. I'm not into one night stands or hookups. Id really like to find my one and only forever but I dont think that exists either. Relationships are complicated as all heck. At the same time, if I don't date, how does one find the one because the chances they'll come to me in the market or street are, yea right, what are the chances? Who has time for dating combined with the balance of a simple and emotionally, mentally, and physically satisfying life? I dont want complications. I have zero space for those headaches. I had a high-school crush that was more long make out sessions in a car with a little oral. There was no emotional friendship there. I had a 10 year relationship in college where the last 5 were a headache and there was no love anymore. Then a brief romance recently that was so mentally abusive, and about gaslighting that it scarred me to no end and I could see the manipulation, and evilness only after the fact. But I still yearn with no effort or searching. So my question is, should I get a sexdoll and resign myself to that for the rest of my life? Clearly I want the physical satisfaction and intimacy without the troubles or a relationship, so, right?