I’ve spent a lot of time and energy trying to recover from my past crimes, and I’ve gotten pretty far, but I don’t think I’ll ever really heal. I worked through the shitty jobs. I got through unstable housing. I lost a lot of friends and I find it even harder to connect or trust others than any other time. I might have found my five or ten people I actually like, but the rest of them are better off at a distance. I don’t join clubs and I don’t stay long at the work/school potluck or whatever. My communication was poor before and it hasn’t gotten much better, so there’s three of four really important things that just don’t go well because I’m not being clear about boundaries and expectations. I usually feel like I’m neglecting the five or ten important people because I’m not communication the same way they do. I’m tired all the time, but I’m doing a fair amount of work.