It’s shameful that you would spends so many years telling me you were on my side and that you were one of my biggest supporters, and then do what you did. Even if you were forced out coerced in some way, you made it sound like you were juggernaut and couldn’t be stopped. All I needed was you in my corner and I had nothing to worry about. I did trust you too. You called me and I expected you to tell me you were proud of me for making it this far. I took your call and I set up your meeting so you could sabotage me with shitty news and you and your group. In the end I’m mostly embarrassed I held on so long anyway. I’m also embarrassed that I think about it, but I spent close to twenty years thinking I was part of a “family”. Some kind of community bigger than me. I have own family, which is crazy when you consider I dreaming of an isolated shed on an abandoned lot just a few years ago. They were going to be part of your community. I guess that’s the good part though. In that sense, it’s like you did bring a gift after all. Anyway, I’m still working on that recovery thing. Some days are better than others. I will get better. You will most likely stay the same.