I yelled at some delivery guy because he asked me to move my car. I was parked in a loading zone, but I didn't care; I yelled right back at him. We both got out of our vehicles and approached one another. He pointed to the sign, which clearly stated it was a loading zone… and I pointed to nothing. I had not a leg to stand on, but that didn't deter me from demeaning the guy. I told him to ask me nicely and say please, otherwise he'd have to call a cop. He looked a me and probably thought I was an asshole (which I was being) and just gave in… I'm sure he was too busy for my shit. He said please and I told him to "go back to fucking work loading those boxes" as he walked away and I moved my car. I feel like shit now. I'm not that kind of guy, I've just been stressed out lately and really depressed. In my mind, I kind of wanted him to kick my ass… I wouldn't have fought that hard. I need something different in my mundane day to day. I want to feel alive again. I want to be happy, and in love, and excited and all those other things I used to feel. I feel so numb these days. A beat down would have at least been something… I would have felt something. I made a stand and it was a stupid one. I was a complete and utter asshole, but for reasons that driver and passerby's will never know.
I Made a Stand Today
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