Hey mom, I just want to remind you that you fucking suck. I’d tell you in person, but I never have any idea what rehab clinic you’re living in, or whether or not you’re dead. That is, until you call from some weird number and leave rambling messages or suddenly show up at my apartment looking for twenty dollars. Well, I’ll never give you so much as a nickel as long as you want to go on pretending that giving birth makes you deserving of anyone’s respect (especially mine). But I’ll give a lot more than twenty dollars to Planned Parenthood. In fact, that’s my new mother’s day ritual. I’m aware that they’re mostly in the business of pap smears, but if I can imagine that my money fills up the free condom bowl, or helps one fuck-up vacuum a fetus out of her uterus, saving someone from a life like mine, I can sleep just a little easier at night.
Happy Mother’s Day, Bitch.
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ah mothers day. when roses aren’t enough just add bitterness
Right on! That is a great mother’s day ritual. Totally worthy I anon
This is so perfect and beautiful. Whoever you are OP, I love you.
Mother’s are fucked up humans, just like everyone else. Yours neglected & abandoned you. Just know that when addiction takes hold, the person that you know & love is gone. You can blame her & resent her & be filled with disgust & shame, for the rest of your life. And it will eat you up. Or, you can accept that she is an addict. That she has lost herself & fallen prey to a horrendous, soul-eating affliction. You can go to Al-Anon, you can read about how addiction actually affects the brain.
There is a measure of relief in understanding. A lightening of that burden of anger & betrayal. It does not mean that you should open the door to your mother’s addiction. But, for your own peace of mind, try to have some empathy for someone who is in such a hopeless struggle. And know that, how ever far away she may be, even addicts love their children. They just use dope to drown the guilt & the pain. Keep your healthy boundaries, but try to forgive her for being a flawed, fucked up human on this planet.
But, really…keep those boundaries!
Oh Huni,
My heart truly goes out to you…. Coming from a family of abusers and users I understand your rage and helplessness.# 4 is very right. Keep your personal boundaries, be true to yourself, don’t fall into the trap of hate and bitterness because absolutely no good ever comes out of this. Be educated, keep your supportive friends close to you and above all remember that she was once the mother who held you in her arms for the first time with a heart bursting with tears.
addiction is an awful powerful force that steals people and changes their lives and others around them in horrible ways. Remember also, it is never to late and maybe one day,one of those trips to rehab might start her on her own journey back to herself and to you….xxoo